Many interesting facts were to be discovered in life. As many people tried to discern, as many people tried to discover. The loneliness of pure feeling was about to explode.
I walked from one alley to the others in order to find a way to survive in this what-so-called earth. I met so many people, but in their eyes, I was not good at all, I was nothing but rubbish, I was just a filth community, the one that needed to be cast away. They liked to make fun of me, hit me a lot and threw some junk at me.
Was it that their eyes were just focusing on beautiful objects? Did they just care about golden retriever, shi tzu, puddle, and the equals? Did they ever think of something ordinary and plain?
I had never thought about how I could survive before, till the day I met a little innocent girl. The first time I met her, from the distance, I could see the bright eyes of hers. I could see the difference compared to others, as she always left her lunch box on the glider, just for me to take. From that day forward, I kept watching her actions. I didn’t even know why, but it was like the only place I could find the love of this world. It was like I finally found my own purpose in life, the purpose to watch her over till the right time…
From days to weeks, weeks to months and months to years, the girl was raised to be a very beautiful character. She was so adorable and the only thing I knew from her, she always left her lunch box for me and then walked away into the alley.
I kept thinking within me, ‘Is it true that there is still such a nice person like that in this world? Is it true that my destiny might await me in advance?’
There was no much to do if I stayed like this forever as I was getting old by days. I tried to follow her into the alleys, and there I saw one of the worst scenarios ever.
There was this girl and 2 guys.
‘But, Dad! I took the right jar. I really don’t know why it tasted like a tea!’ yelled the girl.
‘He’s lying, master!’ said one of them.
‘I know! And just shut up will ya!’ That man took a big cudgel and smashed it at the girl. He kept hitting the girl’s forehead over and over and I could smell the blood of hers all over the body.
I couldn’t move even an inch for sometimes. I could only observe and hear them talking each other.
‘You are not worthy to be my girl!’ the guy left the dying girl alone with the other guy and went back inside the building. One thing I did notice his eyes were so watery but his anger embodied it all.
The other guy just kept standing there and smiling at the girl.
‘I… I don’t understand at all… Why you tried so hard to kill me… Ron…’ asked the girl.
‘No reason! I just hated you so much till I can’t even breathe! You are no worthy to be his daughter! But I’ll be his only son one day, and I’ll be as powerful as your Dad! Hahahaha…!’ He kicked the girl and left her alone to death.
When I gained my balance, I walked to her. She smiled at me, and asked nicely, ‘How’s your lunch today? I’m sorry… You have to take care of yourself from now on… I hope I could be… much… help…’
It was her last breath…
The result of everything was hatred, burn with hatred and no feeling of love in heart. I hated everything in this world, I even blamed the God. Why could this happen to her? One thing for sure, I could never ever forget the smell of that sick Ron. For one day or the other I would regain my own revenge…
A few moments after that, a big explosion happened and the building was destroyed into pieces. I bite her necklace and took it away. It was the only thing I could do, so that I could always have the memory of her within me.
Such moments which have never existed? Such moments I’ve always dreamt about? Such places which is far far away? Will it ever occurs? Or will it just always be a dream that never exist?
All my life has been covered by darkness and clouds, trying to cover all the possibilities in life. If only I had guts and courage… Deeply inside, there is always something, a hope for the thing, that hard to outflow, as the life that full of bashful…
