When Schlitter heard that, he was really surprised. He had never realized that Rawn could say that such those words. ‘W…Why you think like that? We’ve friends for years and you say something like that! How cruel you are!’
‘Schlitter, from now on just go away for me okay. Enjoy your life with your other friends. There are so many things to do, just don’t waste your time for me because of that debt! You’re almost leaving this city and you’re still with me. How about your other friends?’
After Rawn said that, he walked on to the bus and left Schlitter alone.
‘I’m not finishing my story Rawn…’ said Schlitter in his heart. ‘It’s not because of that about the girl. I have a desire to have her but what can I do. She was refused me once so it would be impossible to have her again. I knew it since the first time she refused me, because of that when she was very kind to me, I just felt strange and I didn’t like if he was like that. My heart is happy but my feeling won’t feel happy for her. I understand you Rawn… You are just like me, feeling the same way as I felt for her that day, don’t you Rawn? Heheheheheh’
Schlitter drove his car home and that’s the last time he met with Rawn, one of his best friends for years.
At Rawn home, he was sitting on his chair and thinking a lot, while his tears kept falling down. ‘If only he knows that what I have done is just for his own good. I barely have any friends and friends of mine are just because they want something for me. But he is different. I don’t see that he wants something from me, he’s just my real friend and I’m looking forward to see him again.’
Rawn felt a sleep on that chair and he suddenly dreamed about his past. He remembered when he was a child, his mom was afraid of him because he always talked about such things that his mom couldn’t see, even feel it. She brought Rawn to many magicians but it just made Rawn became afraid of those magicians. Rawn was yelled at them and cursed them.
Even though her mother had slapped him, but that kid would never understand. He was not wrong, that power he had was come within his heart since he was born for the first time. So there is no need to be blame, but why people around him tried to seal the power within him. He just did not understand.
Rawn suddenly woke up and found his phone ringing. It was Schlitter who was looking for him. Rawn just stay calmed and wait till Schlitter talked in the voice mail, ‘Rawn, I won’t bother you again. Just tell me one thing! Why you keep calling on them while you believed in God! Please, I need your answer!’
Few days had passed and the departure of Schlitter is very near. Every day Rawn was just stayed at home and had nothing to do. He had no mood to walk outside even with his other friends. ‘Schlitter, I hope you are happy right now J, Even my heart is feeling not right till now. I still believe in you. I just feel very lonely because I haven’t heard any news from you since that day. I remembered that when I felt lonely, you sometimes could fill it even you don’t understand how much it means to me. But now, if you insist for the answer, I will tell you.’
At the last day before his departure, Schlitter called Rawn and this would be the last time they could talk each other. ‘Rawn, I won’t beg you anymore to tell the truth about why you still calling on them. I just want to say thank you for your support to me, I knew that sometimes people here are talking about you, but I’m just listening to them. Although I knew the truth about you, I was too afraid to tell them the truth. I afraid that they would hate me too if I said something, so I just keep quiet.’
‘Don’t be like that. That’s okay for me! If you insist to know why, I’ll tell you now. I believed in God, but Schlitter, I need friends! I really need friends that can understand about my life, about the truth of me. And people never care about that! I’m angry to them! I hate them, I hate everyone who hate me! But I couldn’t. My heart told me not to be angry to them because it’s not their fault! So I’m looking for friends that would understand about me and that’s a real friend. Till now, my real friends are ‘THEM’, I just can’t avoid that.’
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