Back to the place of the man whom I adored. Surprising for me… Really bad of him! Who was he? Playing games with another girls? The one in front of my eyes was really unbelievable. Why he dared to did that again? What was his reason then? Was it the same reason? I did never thought that there was a man who dared to make the same mistakes twice.
Meanwhile he was with that girl, I saw Sasie was far away from him. I didn’t know why that Sasie still didn’t want to understand that man feeling. Was it hard to see the truth? Didn’t she want to know the real answer why that man had courage to break that girl? I didn’t understand them at all. What did they want?
Trying to understand that man whom I finally knew as Dante was really hard. He didn’t have that such big evil like the boy I saw before, but reading his heart was really complicated. He could bury his own feeling very deep.
‘Hehehehehe, it looks like you always have a hard time in reading people mind, don’t you? J’ Asked the girl who always followed me.
‘At least tell me your name please! So I can say goodbye when you’re leaving girly! Hehehehhee. It’s just if you don’t mind though!’
‘Claire, that’s my name. Do you ever learn about run away from your own feeling? Learn it now or it will be too late. He said that it’s almost the time to see the REAL world for you.’
I was really happy when I heard that, but I couldn’t feel happy, it was just not the right time because the man in front of me was unpredictable. In my mind I just felt that I had to follow him and to gave him a big support. At least I had to see him first for then, so I could help him.
Following Dante’s path was not as easy as I think. Hearing Claire’s words about run away, finally I got the clue about his life. It was really he, the man with that feeling. He thought that he might be able to forget about Sasie, but I was sure that he was absolutely wrong. I learnt that forget about something that you really liked were not as easy as forget about something that you didn’t really care. Poor you man, why you did that, forget something was not like that, but the best thing to forget something was only to use time.
By the time passed away, you might forget about that. Although it was very hard, but I believe that it could be done.
‘Every people can choose his or her own path. So why you have to bother about it so much. If you care about them, just go outside. You have that gift, and it would be useful to the world. Why you have to bother about Him who did never want you to go outside?’
Once again I saw a different evil bothering me. But now I think I already have the answer for him. ‘You are wrong if you ever think like that. He had showed me the way. He said that He would show me the real world soon!’
‘Real world heh? Hehehehehhehe! Don’t you realize what’s the meaning of real? Ask you guardian angel for the truth!’
Suddenly Claire appeared near me, and her face looked a bit angry to the devil. ‘What do you know about real world, Colsone! Just don’t bother him!’
‘Tell me, it’s not true Claire? What is the meaning of real world?’
For the first time in my life I felt that I was being threatened. I didn’t know why but I felt that my presence was just like a toy. I saw Claire’s face and I also saw Colsone’s face. Why was that? I felt about lying and evil. For the first time there’s no holy thing in Claire’s heart.
‘Claire, he can see if you lose your holiness in order to lie to him! Heheheh!’
‘Shut up you, Colsone!’
I ran away from them. I did never know about my presence in this world. I did never know about the real world. My heart was broken. I looked at the sky and I realized that my time was near.
I pray to the God. However I still believed in him. He might have chosen my path to be like this in order to learning about the world. Although I still didn’t know my presence, I still believed in him and whatever the way he chose for me, I believed that it would always be right.
ThE EnD
Time is everything… You will never know when the time has come to you. But what will you do if you know about it? Learn something is not that bad, but knowing something can tear your heart apart. Not to deep to know somebody is better than we are ever think. That’s what why we always afraid to find the truth and also afraid to tell the truth.
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